Am I where I am supposed to be?
I know the answer is yes - yet that doesn't make it any easier.
I'm bathing in chaos, anger and stress.
Each day being pushed and triggered to see all the places I need to heal.
Each day I surrender and let go.
Each day I put one foot in front of the other.
Each day I focus on me and control what I can control.
Each day I learn, improve amd grow.
Each day I get more clear on what I want.
Each day I become more compassionate - towards myself and others.
Each day I explore how I'm creating these circumstances and ultimately how it's serving me.
Each day I bless and send love to those around me who are revealing my judgements, fears, anger, resentments and criticisms.
I know they're here to shine a light on all of the places in me that I get to embrace, love and transform.
I know they are here FOR me - serving my growth.
Honestly doing the work can be fucking hard.
I know why people choose not to do it - why they avoid feeling the feelings and numb themselves with tv and alcohol (or their distraction of choice).
I've been there. I know that life all too well.
But I'm committed to doing the work, to figuring this all out, to being the change I want others to become.
To be the example for my kids I wish I had.
So I won't quit.
I can't quit.
I know, trust and believe that all of this is preparing me for my next chapter and that I am exactly where I am supposed to be.