It sucks to suck

Until it doesn’t.

Sometimes you just gotta embrace the suck, lol!

My perfectionist side hates when I don’t meet my standards and it’s even worse if I’m the weak link in the chain.

Boy can I feel it when I have to do something new and I haven’t even had a chance to practice – you’ll see me squirm.

I had that experience tonight. I was participating in an online group program and we had to practice something in front of our group, and it was something that I had never done before.  That’s the kicker, it’s bad enough if I’m not good at something – but if people have to witness it, ugh. That’s torture.

I could really feel it in my body. So I gave it a hug. Did some conscious breathwork and did it anyway.

I’d like to amend the saying, “Feel the fear and do it anyway” to “Feel the fear, find it, hug it, breathe through it and then do it anyway!’ Guess it’s not quite as catchy though…

The end result – it turned out ok, I didn’t die, I received great feedback, I know where I can improve and I ended up building circuits in the process and using it all to my benefit.

I was also pleasantly reminded that it makes such a difference when people hold a safe space for you and want you to do well – and that you’re never as bad as you think you are!