Not good enough

It’s been an underlying pattern that exists in my life, that I’m not good enough – or what I’m doing isn’t good enough.

It’s a pattern that truly does not serve me and has caused a lot of pain.

It’s crazy to think about the number of ways that this underlying belief has impacted my life – and one of them came to light this evening – a pattern that I first noticed between my mom and I that I’ve realized has transferred to my daughter and I. 

In both cases, I don’t feel good enough. In the case of my daughter, I know that she also experiences not feeling good enough in my presence – which unfortunately means that I’ve perpetuated the pattern.

What a valuable insight to have. I knew part of this before as it’s been going on since I was a young teen – but to really see it in full swing today was very enlightening – and sad.

I know I’m here to break my familial patterns. I am fully committed to doing this. And yet, this one wasn’t even on my radar. I thought I was mostly working on scarcity issues and money blocks – but this one fits in there quite nicely.

What an amazing time this is to be alive and to be awakening.