Sitting with the unknown

It can bring up a lot of emotions, not knowing what’s next, not knowing what my purpose is, not knowing what I’m here to do, not knowing what tomorrow will bring – or even today.

I don’t like not feeling in control.

But the truth is, embracing the unknown and surrendering to the moment can be quite freeing and it’s where Truth resides. It’s in this stillness and in this quiet that I give myself permission to really feel what I feel – instead of tucking it under the carpet – and listen to what my body is telling me, allowing it to serve me.

It’s an opportunity.

For me, that means noticing where in my body my attention is taking me, and giving it a squeeze, like a little hug from the inside. Acknowledging it. Letting it know I’m there, I’m listening. 

Then I use conscious breathwork to anchor myself in my body and breathe through what’s called my central channel. Staying present with it, loving it, embracing it, welcoming it all into my body.

The past 6 months have been filled with so much unknown – for so much of the world – and an amazing opportunity filled with a beautiful rainbow of emotions to play with.

Some days I suck at this – letting the emotions take over and missing the opportunity – but many days I remember and the emotions and the unknown have served me well.

This perspective and way of being is not how I was raised, it’s not my default and it’s certainly not the societal norm. 

I often feel like a toddler learning to walk who keeps falling or “failing.” 

And yet, I’m so determined and committed to discovering Truth, to Remembering – that I continue to get back up, dust myself off and begin again in this present moment.